I have wanted it to be Friday since Monday. Do you ever have weeks like that? I have felt so stressed lately. I think I have slept less and cried more this week than other weeks (though, it's probably a close competition).
On Monday I printed up the "Our Office Will Be Closed On Memorial Day" sign. I started to get REALLY excited. I told my co-worker, Baldy, I am so excited for Memorial Day. He asked, "Why? Do you have fun plans?" I replied, "No. I just get to have a day off from work." Pathetic, I know.
Really, I just have felt so overwhelmed lately; not enough money, not enough time, not enough breathing room, not enough space in my head to sort out and categorize all of those random thoughts. Will I be able to read all of the blogs today that I want to? Do I have posts ready for the next two weeks? Will anyone notice if I skip a day? Should I get a new job? Does he love me? If he does, when the heck will he figure it out? Should I move? Can I really move my family into a tiny 2-bedroom apartment just to be able to make ends meet? Should I move home? What job would I possibly get there? Will any of this solve my financial struggles or provide relief so I can stop Robbing Peter to Pay Paul? And when will Peter find out? Should I get a second job waitressing on the weekends? When can I possibly find the time to go back to school? Will I have a heart attack from all of this stress? If I had a heart attack, would I get paid time off?
Yes, it's true. My tired, exhausted, overworked, inundated brain actually had the heart attack thought. Again, pathetic.
So, I am glad today is Friday. That gives me two whole days in which I am going to try NOT thinking about all of those things I just blurted out, and I am going to try to do something to relax. Maybe I will take the advice of the speaker I heard last night...
Play Hide and Seek, in my own house, by myself......... while the kids ARE home!
Have a great weekend everybody! [and if you happen to have a huge basement you wanna rent out for real cheap, or too much cash that you need to get rid of cuz you just possibly don't know what to do with it all... give me a call!]