I have wanted it to be Friday since Monday. Do you ever have weeks like that? I have felt so stressed lately. I think I have slept less and cried more this week than other weeks (though, it's probably a close competition).
On Monday I printed up the "Our Office Will Be Closed On Memorial Day" sign. I started to get REALLY excited. I told my co-worker, Baldy, I am so excited for Memorial Day. He asked, "Why? Do you have fun plans?" I replied, "No. I just get to have a day off from work." Pathetic, I know.
Really, I just have felt so overwhelmed lately; not enough money, not enough time, not enough breathing room, not enough space in my head to sort out and categorize all of those random thoughts. Will I be able to read all of the blogs today that I want to? Do I have posts ready for the next two weeks? Will anyone notice if I skip a day? Should I get a new job? Does he love me? If he does, when the heck will he figure it out? Should I move? Can I really move my family into a tiny 2-bedroom apartment just to be able to make ends meet? Should I move home? What job would I possibly get there? Will any of this solve my financial struggles or provide relief so I can stop Robbing Peter to Pay Paul? And when will Peter find out? Should I get a second job waitressing on the weekends? When can I possibly find the time to go back to school? Will I have a heart attack from all of this stress? If I had a heart attack, would I get paid time off?
Yes, it's true. My tired, exhausted, overworked, inundated brain actually had the heart attack thought. Again, pathetic.
So, I am glad today is Friday. That gives me two whole days in which I am going to try NOT thinking about all of those things I just blurted out, and I am going to try to do something to relax. Maybe I will take the advice of the speaker I heard last night...
Play Hide and Seek, in my own house, by myself......... while the kids ARE home!
Have a great weekend everybody! [and if you happen to have a huge basement you wanna rent out for real cheap, or too much cash that you need to get rid of cuz you just possibly don't know what to do with it all... give me a call!]
17 comments:
well, I *DO* have the basement. But somehow moving in with my pathetic life wouldn't be the best way to cheer you up! ;)
Take a long nap this weekend. Naps always help me.
Do something nice for you this weekend. This may include but should not be limited to playing hide and seek to avoid the kids.
I had an awful day yesterday. All I want to do is spend all day Saturday in bed. Won't happen but a girl can dream, can't she?
Take care of yourself and have a great weekend.
moving might help. at least you wouldn't have to spend so much on the house, it could go towards other things. also, if i find a sack of money i'll send it your way.
Sorry you´re having such a stressful time!
Hope you find some solutions to the questions you mentioned.
Sorry can´t really help...
But will pray for you!
I know what you mean life sometimes can just be unbareable. God Bless you and I will keep you in my prayers!
Hey, we are inviting you to our place for Memorial Day. You just need to come up with gas money for the trip. You can invite a 'friend' too if you like.
You will figure it out, and the right answer will come to you when you need it. You are awesome and can handle ANYTHING so hang in there. You're amazing! :)
I came back to insist you have yourself a good, relaxing, and fun weekend!
You can send your kids to my place this weekend, if it would help. I'm sure Christian and Daniel would love that. Anything to help!
I have a basement, but it's so gross, so unspeakably dungeon-esque that I wouldn't even let my dog - if I owned one - live down there. But, if I did have a nice basement, I would gladly say "come on over." I'm sorry you're having so much stress, so many struggles, worries and cares. I am praying for you tonight, asking Jesus to give you His peace and comfort, and also the wisdom to make the decisions that you are facing.
If my "money grows on tress" tree multiplies I'll root you one and ship it off. That's how we roll down here in the south, we share, we root our favorite plants, trees, bushes, and we share them with our friends.
You could move down here! We don't have a basement, but, we have a camper! You could write home and tell them all you are living the Arkansas Dream..
I am feeling you. I get overwhelmed like this all the time. I hope you find some relief soon.
Let me deal with all the questions:
Moving Home might be helpful if you mean by us so that we can help out from time to time. Just look on-line for the job.
HE will make up his mind in August. Don't know why till then, but he will in August.
A smaller place might be okay as long as you have everything you need: 3 to 4 bedrooms and the other normal things. If you need to move into a 2 bedroom place make sure they are Large bedrooms.
Money, uh, that is the toughy. Our money tree did not blossom this year. We are still trying to sell the motor home. Now here is an idea, move into that until you find a place... we will have Dad drive it out there to the park or campground. Or move here and stay in there until we come up with another plan.
And if you move here you can go to school on line or are you wanting to finish out there. If that is the case then you will need to find a place there.
I guess wait until reunion time and see what we can come up with for suggestions. Love ya, MOM
Take it easy my friend. I wish there was an OFF button on my brain (and for your sake, yours too!) so we could just *rest* and not *think* for a few days.
Keep on keepin' on.
Hey, I love reading your posts daily because they are always witty and fun. And that's why I feel all the more bad for you after reading your post today. But you know what - sometimes solutions walk right to you when you least expect them to.So stay happy and hopeful and everything will be alright soon. All the best mate!
I'm sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. I hate when my mind thinks to much.
I'm getting a few days off for Memorial Day and I'm psyched!!! Although...I've learned by now not to get my hopes up because I have had 'days off' taken back.
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