I am so irritated. I know, I can't manage other people. I know, I can't live their life. I know, I know, blah, blah, blah.
It's just that Menaissance was only six months ago, and he only met her like four months ago, and now they're engaged! And the really stupid, dumb, asinine thing is that it's not like I was "saving" him or "waiting" for him. I mean our little flingy-thingy during Menaissance was just for fun. It's just that he knows better. He knows that she shouldn't be the one.
How should I put this without sounding mean? Like, he has told me what he wants in a future spouse, and what he is NOT willing to settle for, and he told me he won't compromise anymore. Sort of that "been there, done that" with his first marriage and he vowed to not do that again. And guess what folks?!?!?! Yup. He is settling. He is lowering his standards, and he is compromising the very thing he swore he wouldn't. And WHY pray tell you ask, is he settling?
Well, I think he is settling for Two, count them, Two reasons! 1 - he wants Chocolate. Y'know the kind I am talking about. The rich creamy kind that he thinks is in that package. and 2 - because his ex moved on immediately after their divorce and got herself a live-in boyfriend. I think that he thinks if she can move on so quickly, than he should be able to too.
I want to smack him upside the head. I mean, seriously! He needs a spiritual spanking in the worst way right now. **sigh**
I know. I can't manage other people. I can't make him do anything. Only he can make his choices and work out his own salvation. And who knows... maybe, hopefully, I am dead wrong. Maybe things will end up perfectly-perfect for him and she will be the woman he is hoping for.
Heck, maybe, in a way, I am a teensy jealous, even if he is "settling". Who knows? And maybe, just maybe, he broke a teensy piece of my heart all over again. I mean, again, not that I was waiting on him or anything. I guess you just always want to see your first love get it right and be happy too.
I have to admit, "spiritual spankings"... that was a good one, eh?