I AM...often insecure about myself, which most people might not guess.
I WANT...to live my life from this point forward with no regrets.
I HAVE...several blessing for which I am grateful. Children, a job, food, clothing, shelter, family, friends, freedom...too many to list.
I WISH...I could be an at-home mom, or at least only work part-time...and give my kids the things I never had and the things that I know they wish for.
I COULD...eat a whole loaf of sour dough bread and pesto in one sitting. I've actually done it before. I could also eat a whole box of cereal in one sitting. These aren't things I am necessarily proud of, lol.
I HATE...feeling manipulated. It is more insulting than feeling physically beat down.
I FEAR...that I am not doing my best at being a mom.
I HEAR...music in my head. There is almost always a song "playing" in my mind.
I SEARCH...for answers daily through prayer.
I DON'T THINK...I will ever be able to sleep in an empty house and feel safe.
I REGRET...not finishing school. I was young and naive and thought I'd have time "after the baby was born". But three babies and 14 years later...
I LOVE...being around the people I love the most, most of the time.
I ACHE FOR...love. For feeling loved and being loved and being able to give just love.
I ALWAYS...enjoy trying new things, even if it is something I end up hating (like putting on a new roof!) I enjoy the challenge, and the feeling that hey - at least I tried it! when it's over.
I AM NOT...going to sit back and wait for life to happen to me anymore. I am taking charge. I will determine my own success and my own happiness. Me!
I SING...all the time. In the shower. In the car. In church. At home. I love to sing. There is a song in my heart almost always.
I NEVER...intentionally hurt anyone. I feel terrible if I know I have done something to hurt or offend anyone. I feel like I can never apologize enough when this happens.
I RARELY...have time to watch TV anymore and just "veg out". But I am gonna change that! Ha Ha Ha. New Fall Season starts this week!
I CRY WHEN...I am tired, watching sappy movies or tender commercials on TV, when thinking about someone I care about who is having a hard time, when the spirit touches me...basically...I always cry!
I WATCH...funny TV shows like The Office, Seinfeld, Corner Gas, and lots more! Hip-Hip-Hooray for DVR!!!
I AM NOT ALWAYS...the most organized person. My rambling thoughts are sometimes the product of my chaotic life. However, I do prefer a neat & tidy, organized house. Now...has anyone seen the butler???
I HATE THAT...I have allowed myself to gain weight over the years. I used sickness as my excuse for lots of it. In part, that is true. But, c'mon...no one forced me to eat the entire bag of Chili-Cheese Fritos and that entire pan of Cheesecake!
I AM CONFUSED ABOUT...what I am doing as a parent sometimes. What impact will this choice or that action have on my children the rest of their lives? I mean, seriously, I could probably screw all of them up big-time!
I NEED...a vacation! I don't even care to where. And then I will need a week off when I get back, to allow me time to recuperate from vacation!
I SHOULD...probably stop Blogging and do my dishes or something else a little more productive!